tml is the start of sch...
plus is math paper..
and its alr 10 plus and yet i have a lot more to do..
God, i need your help!!
=X

common tests are is 2 days away.
and my revision is not even half done.
i am kinda disappointed with myself.
but on the other hand, i have this amazing peace in my heart
i know it must be from God. (:

anyway, i gotta get up and move on
recharge my engine and work hard for my A levels.
stop wasting time watching all the drama shows.
i could have use the time to serve God, know God more
or even be an effective salt and light.
arghhs. nvm. no regrets. let's move on.
(:

anyway, i come across someone's blog
and i feel really burdened and sadd.
but yet really inspiring! (:
i dun think you know who i am
but i do see you around in church. (:
anyway, although i cannot identify with your struggles,
but all the words and the hope you have in God really motivates me loads.
thanks girl. i will keep you in prayers. (:

okays. time to settle lots of stuff in my life.
1. i got to step out of my comfort zone and be a salt and light every single where i am.
like what emelia says, everyone is observing our lives...
although i dunno how to be one, but i know God will lead me through
2. self discipline.
stop taking God's peace for granted. i still need to face the reality of A levels. but but, i am so going to go through A levels with God. (: no matter what results u give, i will accept. i will just really give in my very best. (:
3. my own relationship with God
it needs to be so much so much more deeper! yes, only then, i will not give up hope so easily. hold on to God's hands. and i need to serve with a JOYFUL heart. do QT SERIOUSLY.
4. Love
wow. i dun really know how. but i need to learn. to love like how God love. to see like how God sees. stop generalizing ppl wendy! i must learn to speak out of love. BE A TRANSFORMER AND NOT A TERMINATOR!

anyway, the list will deifinitely go on.
but hey, let me start with this 4 areas in my life first.
i shall stop wasting my time on shows and dwelling on the negative thoughts
and instead start working towards the glory of God's kingdom

woohoo. so many problems in life
but yet
i will remain JOYFUL and PEACEFUL
because..
GOD BE THE SOLUTION! (:

yes. i need to go back to the basics.
love God, love ppl.
do everything out of LOVE.

take care ppl.
it seems that H1N1 is getting more and more serious...
i gonna pray for God to move.
one church is closed temporary....
pray that ppl will experience God more during this period of time.
yes, everything happen for a reason
and God, you know it all! (:
I LOVE GOD, for he FIRST LOVE me. (:

aubrey said something which really strucks me lots during caregroup.
we come to this world not to seek understanding...
although we may have lots of problems,
noone can understand fully, ONLY GOD CAN! (:
turn to God!

oh. more goals set for myself.
1. T.W.O-- trust, willingness, obedience
2. since my buddies are aubrey and lauren, i got to make effort to know then better.
3. jjcg. i dun really know the guys in my group... :(

its close to 3am in the morning
and i am still watching shows
i am really addicted to lots of shows
all thanks to my sis
but, i really enjoyed it
i know i got to pay the consequences.
preparation of common tests is... :(

anyway, i am here to say and thank these bunch of ppl in my life
(:

CHARIS aka SANDY
hmmm. she is my ex and current shepherd
although i dun tell her everything, but i know that she cares about me
something i really admire and like about her is that
she always trust God in all circumstances.
i must really learn from her in this aspect!
(:
despite all the testings she face from God, she choose to stand firm
and trusts that it is part of God's perfect plan (:
yes, lets continue to learn together!

AUBREY
she is really a cool girl
she looks so super scary on the outside
but is really nice on the inside.
although she may not be perfect
but she nvr fails to improve herself!
yupps. and she is always really true
when she feels happy and joyful, she shares
when she feels unhappy, she just lie on my shoulder and cry
and yes, i think she is the most real real real friend i have ever met!
and she is always there to listen to me too! (:
and giving me practical advices!

EMELIA
wahh. i think she is really great
not because she is rich or whatsoever
but she is always super POSITIVE in all the things she do
she totally nvr complain at all
no matter how much things she have, she still take it in her stride
when she have chem test, she is still willing to listen to my grumbles.
anyways, she is really nice.
no temper at all, except when she just wake up. haha.

ELAINE
ehhs. i dun think you will read this
but i really thank God for you
for being my wonderful friend in school
and praying together, studying together and everything
i really thank God that you are my neighbour and my pri sch friend till now
may our friendship be till eternity!

LIMIN
ahaha. she is really someone who build her life strongly on God
dun really know how to say
but i know that even in the darkest night, when i smsed her
she will definitely reply. (:
and although i am super unlovable, she still love me.

SARAH
hmmm. she is my sec sch teacher who nvr teach me before
but i know must be God's plan for me to know her before i graduate
really thank God for her for bringing me to church
and the truth is i am still as problematic as before
but she is always there to offer help.
(:

PEIFANG
i think she wun read this too
but yeahh. she is really a nice girl who always listen to me
and crap with me
and stay out with me till the latest of the night!
(:

yeahh. these are the really really special friends in my life that i really wann to thank God for.
(:
nights!

aww.. i am feeling super terrible.
=X
my ulcers are super painful...
every part of me doesn't seems right.
=(

back from church camp!
i love my caregroup!
esp all the ppl whom i talked so deeply with
(:

i really learnt a lot during church camp
i like all the new visions of the church and caregroup
180 transformed lives
trust. willingness. obedience.

gained really lots of insights from camp.
although i dun feel as much compared to heroes camp
this is great too!
(:

before camp,
i really really struggle with lots of issues in my life..
but thank God for being God!
(:

anyway, miracles do happen!
mummy suddenly become super nice?
even my sis ask me what happens to her.
it must be God!!
then my sis starts reading bible and praying with me
it must be God!!
then my relatives start asking me bring their children go church?
it must be God too!
PRAISE GOD!!

i can nvr imagine this happening in my family
GOD, I REALLY WANN THANK YOU FOR IT!
although it is really impossible for my parents to stop screaming at each other
but i can see God working!
daddy is even fetching mummy here and there

somehow, although my cousin got jailed and godfather got hospitalised
i see this as a blessing in disguise!
my mum need rush from prison to hospital
and my dad is always the one sending her there
(: wahhh.. is a miracle to me!
and cause my relative scared their children end up as my cousin...
they ask me bring them all go church.
(:
God is definitely moving

and my studies are kinda suffering
my first week is used to prepare for h3 exam
second week for church camp
and this is the third week
till now, i only did chemistry.
one chapter of math-pnc
one chapter of bio-mitosis and meiosis
:(
i am really really afraid that i am unprepared to common tests..
haiis.

thank God for emelia
haha. i called her when i felt super stress!
and ended up helping her in chem
then i felt better
thank God for lauren
for encouraging me on too!
yay! muackx.

thank God for God
although i dun have complete peace like lauren, sandy they all
but i know that at the end of the day,
God will bring me through!
thanks canice for the wonderful sharing
it really spurs me on.

although my studies cui
but camp still rocks!
i am still helping to do housework.
although i will complain in my heart.
going back to serve God again.
haha. but yeahh.
i need to change my perspective
see studies as a form of MINISTRY
(:

although i dun really know how long i can last
but i really really pray that i will hold on to God's hands
and really go thru a levels with him
haiis. when i look at the pile of work undone
i feel super zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
but when i look to God,
i feel super great!
yay. i wann to play my part in winning the world for God too!

who am i?
i am a little girl with dreams for God
but is always defeated by circumstances.
:(
this is what aubrey said to me.
how true!

no more identity crisis
who am i?
child of God.
a girl made to praise God
(: