woohoo. common tests are finally OVER
except gsc..
today is both a happy and sad day.
really glad that common test is over.
but a lot more sad things happen.
:(

bio paper is the worst!!
i can't answer almost every single question
and the feeling SUCKS totally
argghhs!
and i think i prepared a lot for it lehh
:(
chem is also badd.
all the simple questions i cannot answer.
and of course i nvr finish also
and i forgot some h3 concepts that were tested.
=X
math i thought was quite okay
then i compare and compare answer
realised that i made quite a lot of mistakes.
gp is long over
but yeahh. i no time write finish also.

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feel super zzz. i told mummy that i may do badly
and she start nagging say i not focus
everyday go church bla bla bla
arghhs. oh mann. this is badd
i musn't let church activities affect my studies.
i need work a lot a lot harder.
i can't afford to slack anymore.
i am going to change :"(
but i am not sure how long i can last either.
haiis..

went shopping with pf they all
met xw and a lot of others and ate kfc
and guess what
i haven eat finish
and the person clear my tray??!!!
my mashed potato still there lehh
wanted to take home and give daddy one...
haiis.

shop around and
then went popular
i wanted to buy box file cause i got no file
and guess wat no more sale?!
wahh. bad bad day.

when we were about to leave jp
we went into this cd shop
and i saw my junior from choir..
haiis. WHY WHY WHY??
she dropped out of sch and work full time in that shop
and she carries cigeratte.. :(
oh mann. i almost cried there pls!!!

God, why why why
why did so many happen during this period of time?
are you trying to show me something?
my cousin got into jail
my pri sch classmate got into jail
cause they are from the same gang that are loansharks
and they are only 18!! like me!
and my childhood friend, who used to be so hardworking
i cherish the times we spent studying and playing tgt
and now, she becomes another gangster
who ran away from home
GIRL, WHERE ARE YOU NOW??? :(
then now this junior
my dear choir friend, whom i used to teach her how to sing?
she is really so super nice can,
always there to talk, crap and to cheer me up..
i missed singing our hearts out tgt
i missed pratising and chionging hard for syf tgt
i missed YOU totally
:(

why why?
why did they give up on themselves
:(

then i board the bus alone
and i start reflecting
where would i be if i dun have God?
and it suddenly dawn upon me that i may be one of them..
and i really feel so so so so so burden.
i wann to help them but how?
they are really good ppl
it hurts me. it really really hurts
to the extent that tears welled up in my eyes.
:"(
THEY NEED GOD
GOD, YOU MUST BE GREATER!
a lot a lot a lot greater...

i must learn to count my blessings (:

although i may not be rich, but thank God that
-i have a shelther and food
-parents that still give in their best to maintain this house
-for putting wonderful ppl in my lives to help me too

although i may not be smart, but thank God
-i can still study
-my future is secure in God's hands.

just when i was about to tell myself
i need to be more focus on studies instead
God let me see this side of the world
and it motivates me a lot a lot
i wan to focus on studies and not neglecting his ministry
i wann to play my little little part
and win the world for God
(:

and mr er said something really encouraging...
may God multiply you
yes, although i am not able
GOD IS ABLE!!
God lead me on.
i need you.

nights! i gonna rely on God's strength
and not me (:

i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
-philippians 4: 13