AHH I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS TO SAYY!!
first week of a levels is over!!

anyway, i really thank GOD for being GOD
i dunno how to express it
this is my very first time
I STEPPED INTO THE EXAM HALL WITH NO FEELINGS
was talking to ronald and he say maybe cause burn out
but i choose to believe its GOD WORKING IN ME!
the peace i felt was really indescribable
seriously!

hmmm lets begin with sunday
with me talking to mr ronald from 12am till 5am
tried to sleep at 5 but cant
did some math and sleep from 1130 till1830!!
then VANICE coming over my house to stay over till 3am
and of course we nvr slack lah
was doing math
then talked about prom and other stuff also
yayae. we wearing same colour for prom
-.-

monday i started to revise math
played basketball in the afternoon
i cant believe myself either
mann one day b4 paper and i can still play
but i cant resist the temptation!!
next time cannot go macs study liaoo
see ppl play i also wann play
=X
that night i didnt do much
on phone since 7pm till 12pm with diff ppl of course..
and i worshipped and pray with the song in christ alone!

then wake up and study.
before exams i got a but nervous lah
but i stopped studyin ang spent 30 mins to worship and pray
and after that the feeling totally gone
i'm serious
i go sch super calm and vanice and alina ask me
wendy ahh, why u no feeling de ahh
lol.
i thought i'll freak out when the hall door open
but nope. i went in PEACEFULLY
then i know it is GOD alr.. i nvr felt this way before

and math paper one i flipped open
with my first round only finishing 2, 5, 7, 9.
the rest dunno. i stopped and prayed
again GOD LEAD ME ON!
really really.
ended up i completed all except one (:
i was dead tired after math
but thank GOD for strength!
i lasted till 12am to finish recap bio
then again pray and worship
then wake up at 5 to study gp

tues papers are really blessed!
IT IS GOD WHO TELL ME WAT TO STUDY FOR ONE!
really.
gp p1 i did EXACT SAME QN as i prepared b4..
p2 was okayy too..
bio essay i GUESS IS THAT TOO!!
cause when i was studying the night b4.
i got this somewhat feel that nervous system is impt..
anyway, was studying with vanice and meixi during the break
and i bet nervous will come out with them
AND IT DID!!!!
(: MUAHHAHAHAHAHA.

then I SLACK LIKE NVR BEFORE
came home and sleep
discuss gp n bio with ronald for hours
study chem and I realised i FORGET EVERYTHING!!
=X
i studied chem twice before sleeping
stupid sis take away my earpiece and i didn't managed to worship that nite
i woke up LATE for chem paper
my goodness!!
me and vanice wann to wake each other up at 5 to study
I WAKE UP AT 710
i rushed to sch like shit
again, didn't worship
and guess what
yes, my chem paper is badd

know what i'm hinting at
yes. the importance of going thru papers with God
is so different can
wahh
i can't believe i cant do chem when every other ppl can do
actually i'm quite disappointed lahh
so i no mood study math
i think i wasted 5 hours to think abt my chem can
1 hour to rot in sch to reflect
talked to jacqueline, danny, ronald on phone to discuss chem
keep calculating my marks.
suddenly, some evil thoughts cross my mind and tat motivated me to study math
lol.

yupps, of course i worshipped that night
wake up and prayed and worship too
and math paper was alrights
but some careless mistakes..

ahhh.
a level like over alr can?
next week only chem paper 2
next next week only go sch one day take all 4 papers
next next next week bio paper 1
as i was bathing just now i was thinking
will i regret someday?

i know that i'm nt really giving in my 100000% during A levels.
but before A levels i really got give in my super best lahh..
i dunno lea..
but one day before each paper
even if i study also can't really go in
so i only ended up flipping thru my self made notes only...
spent the other times teaching ppl on phone
talking crap with ronald
yeahh..
each day i just have the feeling
wah, i'm so glad i got this privilege to take A levels.
yeahh.

perhaps a change in perspective
i used to focus on exams and the results itself
but now i focus on the fact that it is indeed a blessing from God that i've come thus far..
really.. i dunno how to put it but yeahh..

last time during exams
i always rush through everything
hope that i can finish and do super well
but A levels is different
i do it slowly at my own pace
really relishing the moments in the exam hall.
quite weird
but really, think of it
how many ppl in this world can take exams...
yeahh. and i kinda look forward to every papers..
cause it just makes me feel so much thankful and all.

okayy enought about A levels.
i was reflecting on my whole life ytd.
mann, i'm 18!
hahaha.
i cried when i compare the same life before knowing and after knowing God.
yeahh, i really hope to reach out to the world soon...

even after knowing God, life hasnt been a bed of roses
consider my j1 life
filled with endless activities and due dates
plus a pain girl in my class
wahh, i cant imagine where would i be without God's assurance.
i know it is God that walked me thru my j1 life..

and j2 life was nth but all studies.
come to think of it
i realised that i'm hardworking actually..
ever since term 3, i stopped eating lunch with my class ppl
every single break go lib to study
come home also study
on my way to church also study.
mann.
its only after prelims i kinda regain my life.
i started to eat with my class ppl
talked more to them
and realise all the fake truths that the pain girl is doing...
hang out and got to know some hi bye frens better
and yeah, they also tell me what the pain girl is doing...

saying this makes me reflect
sometimes i wonder why is she like this
as in is there really any joy in talking bad things abt ppl?
and worse still these things are all fake.
is it right to push the blame to others when u are the one who started it?
is it right for one to judge ppl and then going around and tell people your judgement?
why will one have so many different sides?

whatever it is, i'm glad i didnt do anything much either
say all u wann on ur blog
say all u wann to all ur other friends or whatsoever
i dun really care.

i'm really thankful to God that period of time
for being there for me
thank you Lord for being just
for upholding the righteous ones.
yupps. i dun even need to go around and tell ppl about u
i dun even need to write on my blog abt u
yeahh, ppl can see and judge for themselves...

and i was talking to some ppl
and they said something which really hit me hard.
actually like it or not, believe it or not
ppl come to know God or turn away from God when they see our lives.
and because of her actions, 2 persons rejected God.
:( :(

anyway, back to what i was saying
my life!
i really thank God for this life
i think i've kind of wasted my 18 yrs..
mann. life after A levels gonna be diff for sure.
(:

off to work really hard for chem
i need to do very well for paper 2 to make up for my sucky paper 3
ahhh. God pls make a way out!!
although i screw up my paper 3 terribly like nvr before
i wun give up
i'm fighting on!

i'm a conqueror co heir with Christ
i love this!
i spent every night repeatint the song in Christ alone
every morning before each papers repeatint the sone
the desert song and still!
(: